Thursday, August 30, 2007

SPEAKING OF “CRAZY SEXY CANCER”

Coming back from the “Summer of Love” show at the Whitney the other day, on the subway with our friend Nance and my nine-year-old son, we’re riding in one of those cars that got taken over by a single advertiser, so that everywhere we looked there was an ad for a new TV show called SEXY DIRTY MONEY.

When I point that out to Nance, my little boy says “There’s a show on MTV called SEXY DIRTY CANCER.” I smile at what I take as his need to contribute something original to the conversation, and patiently try to convince him to give up this obvious fabrication. But he insists, so I let it go.

At home, later in the evening, he wants to watch something on the TLC cable channel, which runs “educational” shows, but on topics usually not approached in school. Sometimes very necessary topics, and often exceptional.

The show was about “the tallest woman in the world” who lives in rural China, and her travails. It was moving and, I have to admit, educational. When it ended they had an ad for the show to follow, showing clips from it, and called CRAZY SEXY CANCER.

So he got the network wrong and one word in the title, but he was right, and that was educational for me as well, once more. We watched it, with him disappearing to draw amoeba like shapes on a fringed leather cowboy style vest, adding it to his outfit of tie-dyed tee shirt, metal peace sign hanging from a leather shoestring around his neck and anything else he could find to look like the hippies in the photographs and films and artwork we’d seen earlier at the Whitney show, where he was mesmerized by the ‘60s light show films playing in dark cubicles throughout the exhibit.

CRAZY SEXY CANCER turned out to be another documentary to add to the list of favorites. Made by Kris Carr—a young woman, in her early thirties, if that—and professional actress, who found out she has twenty-eight (28!) tumors, in her lungs, her liver, throughout her body, on Valentine’s Day 2003 and started a video diary that turned into a documentary on becoming consumed with cancer and how best to respond to it, including ignoring it completely and getting on with life with so much determination and beautiful vitality I couldn’t help falling in love with her.

She ends up focusing not just on her own case, but on the cases of several other women as well, including a young mother and her sister, and an older playwright. Their courage, honesty, and all the other clich├ęd but nevertheless true attributes that many people display under similar circumstances, is not only poignant and heartening, but also devastating.

It’s difficult enough to deal with one’s own mortality, but watching such lovely women deal with it so seemingly prematurely is tough. Especially Kris Carr, who is so adorable, while still venting her anger and disappointment and sadness and fear and vulnerability and depression and tenacity and determination to not let it stop her life from moving forward, despite the “incurability” of her particular cancer.

It’s a compelling story, and not just because I’m a “survivor.” More importantly because it’s told so truthfully and in the unique voice and perspective of this lovely but real young woman who was able to seize the opportunity to make a statement about her predicament, and that of others in similar predicaments, and do it with artistry and originality.

It’s more proof, if we needed it, that once again Jack Kerouac was prescient, and not just about the literary world, when he wrote::

“I would like everybody in the world to tell his full life confession and tell it HIS OWN WAY and then we’d have something to read in our old age, instead of the hesitations and cavilings of ‘men of letters’ with blear faces who only alter words that the Angel brought them…”

3 comments:

chio said...

I came upon your blog today. On my last trip to the Whitney, (also saw Summer of Love, by the way, what did you think of it?)I bought 'Hubert Selby Jr.: It'll be better tomorrow' and just finished watching it. When you came out in it, for some reason, I googled you. There was something about you that made me do that. So here I am, pleasantly surprised by a blog that provides good reading(thank you for that). About your August 29th post, I guess Mapplethorpe's gone, but I love taking pics of scars...

Lally said...

Hey Chio, for some of my experience with Selby check out one of my first posts, on him, under the "Sprituality" category" on the list up to the right. As for "The Summer of Love" exhibit, a little disappointing to me. I was there (all over the USA that year) and it didn't capture what I experienced. Concentrating on San Francisco, New York and London, left out a lot of brilliantly original work being down in the spirit of that generation's blossoming all over the world, let alone other parts of the English speaking version. And though my 9-year-old son fell totally under the spell of the various, short, light-show films in the several dark cubicles screening them. I would have liked some of those cubicles devoted to film of dance and poetry readings and music and etc. from that summer and around the world. I've probably got more beautiful art and books and other art objects in my small apartment than they had in that show, or at least so it seemed to me cruising through it. But I was glad I went, glad my little boy dug it, enjoyed seeing photographs and video (even if in prints or on screens too small to really dig with so many people milling about) of events I was at or had friends at, and hearing some of the music and even watching some of the pyschedelic flicks.
As for my scars...

chio said...

Hi Michael,

thanks for getting back to me. We have a public correspondence...

I wasn't around in the Summer of Love, but I kinda have a Summer of Love inside of me. I feel I lived it through other people, and I had to see the show, but I know it doesn't portray the times. It was fun to see some of the memorabilia, I did enjoy seeing the show, but I know it's not giving me the real picture of what it was like. It's just the Whitney's version. However, there's an amazing Rudolph Stingel show there, that made my day. Did you see that one?

About your scars... I've been interested in scars (physical, emotional, social) for years. I did a whole exhibition on my own scars, trying to come to terms with them. I have a fascination for scars and scarred people (and I'm sure you know I'm not just referring to physical scars here), like Selby. Although the more I learn about him, he seems to have actually been a walking wound. And that's probably why I'm into him/his work right now. I'm drawn to fallen angels... I'm gonna read your text on Selby right now. I'm really glad I found your blog.